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guiltyWell, I have ALOT to say, pretty much.
Ok so, I have made a HUGE mistake and thought about it over and over again. The whole Jimmy thing was a waste of my time. I had a GREAT boyfriend that really loved me and this silly 8th grader that I just thought was hot and didn't think it through before I dumped Drew for him. And, I feel SUPER bad because I had already done it to Drew in the past, with Noah. That's probobly why Drew didn't want to have anything to do with me, since well I kinda broke his heart way too many times. Because, I like Drew. As in like like. And, on Christmas he had texted me saying he was sorry. But, it's STILL not the same as it used to be. We used to talk/hug ALL THE TIME. And, I mean ALL the time. He was one of my best friends. And, i ruined it ALL. UGH! Natasha broke up with him on my birthday (how ironic). So, I texted him asking if he was okay, (so did alot of people) and he was just being all depressed and moody. Well, Natasha is one of my best friends in 8th grade. She's awesome(: Well, last weekend I was texting Drew for about an hour. Then, out of nowhere he just goes "lol ur hot" and I was like "Excuse me? Lol." and he repeated it. So, I said. "I..I thought you hated me...?" he said "nope." Then, I go "You..you REALLY think i'm hot? Oh gosh...." He goes, "lol idk i think i like u again." And, I was in SO MUCH SHOCK! :O I started spazzing out. Then, later on he goes (ok, this is REALLY AWKWARD O.o ) "im really horny right now... lol" and i was like "wait..then is what you said a joke?" and he goes "idk" then stopped texting me the whole weekend and started texting Chloe. Then, asked her out on like Wednesday or something. And, I started crying like CRAP on the phone with Brianna and she felt REALLY bad and it got her all sad, too. She said that she was about to cry or something. But, Chloe said that she wouldn't say yes because she couldn't stand me being sad like this. Then, she turns her back on me yestersay and goes out with him! And, SUPRISINGLY I haven't cried...YET. But, I probobly will later. UGH! :'( I keep crying about it...because...I feel like me and Drew were ment to be. I mean, if you saw the things he said to me! And, we talked more probobly than anybody else! Gosh darnit, I could prob name a WHOLE LIST of what we used to have. And, I MISS THAT SO MUCH! So, I cry about it like every night. And, .....JUST UGH! :'( (Btw: Chris and Noah are going out:P ) Anyways, so ya. I'll prob be going now. So ttyl bye love ya! <3 :D
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